Posted 7:55 AM by dE.SoL.AtE
There's chemistry test tomorrow.
i'm going in unprepared again.
AT least i tried reading. Though some trash cropped up in the last minute.
Some walking trash though. *BlEaH*

I hate my life.
I hate having an alter ego.
I hate having people talking behind me.
I hate having people whom i have doubts about around me.
I hate Junior College.
I hate 02s68.
I hate my father.
I hate my life.
I hate myself.
I hate you.
To hell with you man.

I think i'd like to stay away from this goddamn home for as long as i can manage.
As long as my "$300" can support me.
Bloody F*** man.

Love sucks.
Having no money sucks.
School sucks.
Friends who suck, sucks.
Father who craps, sucks.
People who enjoy pinpointing people's flaws, sucks.
My life, sucks.

I wonder what's the feeling like, when you fall from a hundred storey building.
When every second of your life ticks away, and falls apart with every storey passed.
When you finally reach the ground floor, will you hear a "chime" sound...
Where the floor opens up, and it engulfs you whole, crunches and grinds you hard.
You feel your ribcage smash to smithereens.
Your skull gives in to the extreme pressure, your brain smacks hard on the side of the empty skull, and slowly drools out.
Your eyes roll one last time, while you fade away into eternity.
You die unwhole.
You lose control of your limbs, as they lie attached to you, in an absolute awkward position.
This is death isnt it.
Well i'd rather die than try, i mean try than die.
Oh whatever.
Ironical.
Life.

They rhyme don't they.

= The End =

Posted 7:42 AM by dE.SoL.AtE
k. that does it. i'm so pissed with my life again.
i remember this line from "finding forrester" that you write with your heart.
i'm gonna give it a try this time.

here goes.
Its been a while since i last wrote, and various things have happened to me.
some worth laughing about, some worth remembering, some worth crying for, and some worth spitting at.
i'm so pissed with my father.
he thinks a great deal of himself thinking that he's giving the best to me.
god damn it! He THINKS this he THINKS that.
He thinks that the money i got from the red packet is very undeserving, and serves as a form of pocket money.
He thinks that the government pays me 300 a year to subsidise him in giving me pocket money.
HELLLOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! WAKE UP DORK!
You Blardy lame asshole!!!@@!
i bloody fucking need the money as reserves.
i have goddamn rights to keep my own money, to have my own savings.
i have bloody selfish purposes for my money, and hey, listen up loser, who'll pay for my university studies?
You!
*SPITs*
and what's goddamn wrong with me saving up.
what's goddamn wrong with me keeping some money?
I'm not entitled rights to own any money of my own huh.
hey look here man, you don't fool me with those sympathetic phrases, "what if i cannot afford it?"
eh haLLO!!!!
you bloody lOSER!
2 more years and i'll be getting off your bloody hands! i wouldn't be needing your ass money then!
hey ya, listen up ok, you don't scare me.
one more time and i'll leave you!
you listen up, one more time and i'll leave you.
i'm telling ya, ya goddamn loser, that i have my own rights too. ANd you better stop doubting me.
MAN! i'm so fucking pissed with ya!
FUCK! FUCK you! To hell with you!

= the end =